Wow!! It has been so long everyone! I am back with lots of news and updates to share with you all!
I apologize for the excessive use of exclamation points, but I am just too thrilled to share that…David and I are expecting!
The last 3 posts, Olive N Mint Condition, Mellow Melon//Basic Spring Attire and Doggy Date//Blackout Leopard Print were all submitted after we found out.
However, I was a bit torn to continue blogging since pregnancy and fashion are on the opposite spectrum of life, and I knew I would be too self conscious for photos with my upcoming bump.
I explored many options: turning this fashion blog into a mommy blog, solely doing bag reviews, creating another blog or just shutting it down all together, since I wasn’t even sure if I wanted to share this part of my life so openly with readers across the world.
Since my BFP (Big Fat Positive, in TTC ((trying to conceive) world), I have been consumed with Jennifer Stano‘s blog. If you guys aren’t familiar with her, she is a co-designer of www.havefaith.com, who recently gave birth to her lovely son Niko. In her blog, she discusses her personal experiences in depth. Jennifer Stano is an honest, informative, open and truly inspiring blogger, who shares tips and advices on various topics such as her trials and errors of plastic surgeries, fashion, work out routines, marriage, difficulty she had conceiving Niko and so much more. Since her conception in 2013, Jennifer has been openly sharing her pregnancy ups and downs and everything that comes with this ginormous responsibility of motherhood. I sincerely admire and respect her for empowering women all ages, and even though it took me awhile to decide on this, I would love to share some of my pregnancy journey with all the mommies and future mommies out there.
Another inspiration of mine is Anh, a fashion blogger whom I discovered today. She is officially full term in her pregnancy, and she gave me a HUGE self-esteem boost. You will see what I mean if you visit her blog and check out her style. Her belly was seriously the LAST THING I noticed; she is definitely one of the most stylish preggos I have seen.
Please don’t be surprised or offended by the lack of fashion updates for I will be freely using this as my personal journal, containing fashion news, outfit posts, updates on my pregnancy, baby product reviews, and of course – FOOD.
For those of you who are continuing on this journey with me, I am so so excited! Please don’t forget to follow me on Instagram @stylejourneys.
Here is a little update on Junior Choi – David and I decided today that until we find out the gender, we will call our little one, JC.
I am currently in my week 13 of pregnancy and today was our “official pregnancy announcement day.” It was not easy waiting 3 months to share this bundle of joy with everyone, but the chance of MC (ugh, I hate this word – miscarriage) is very high during the early stage of pregnancy. In fact, there is a MC with every 6 conceptions and many women are unaware of their pregnancies or the following MCs. Though there are discrepancies in the number of weeks in each trimester, most women consider week 13 the beginning of second trimester and upon hearing JC’s heartbeat today at my 2nd appointment, David and I knew it was now safe to share the news.
This all started in April when David and I decided to embark on the journey of TTC. We weren’t sure how long it would take so we decided to do some research, read a couple of books on conceiving and gave up alcohol. After going in for our physical check up with our internal medicine doctors, we both received green lights from them to TTC. The science behind conception is truly remarkable and mind blowing. It definitely is a miraculous blessing from God. My female intuitions told me I was pregnant right away, and I knew it before I actually tested positive. I had strange cramps I had never felt before and eery cravings of chocolate when I am a vanilla enthusiast. Post ovulation, waiting 2 weeks, was agonizing and my impatience only led to early pregnancy tests that resulted in BFNs (Big Fat Negative) and disappointment.
I forgot to mention one thing, Koreans are huge on “tae mong” which literally translates to “conception dream.” We believe that a tae mong occurs before or during one’s pregnancy, and it is usually dreamed by the mother, if not by a close family member. Unlike your normal dreams, a tae mong is vivid, memorable and consists of animals and/or flowers that come into your arms (in close contact with). It may sound so silly to some people, but when I had mine, I woke up and was able to recollect every detail, mood, color and intricacy of the dream and tell David. In my tae mong, I was swimming alone in the middle of the ocean when a group of sharks rapidly approached me. I froze and thought, “I am dead meat,” but one of the sharks (the biggest one) swam towards me and wrapped its body around my torso, then escorted me back to the shore. It was the oddest thing, yet so vivid and real I can picture it over and over forever.
I had almost given up on the hope of conception with so many negative test results in the beginning, but it turned out I was testing too early. One Saturday, I woke up, went out and bought a bunch of pregnancy tests from the dollar store, as these had gotten pretty pricy at the time. I saw a faint pregnancy line in process peak through the test result window of the most labor intensive test kit I had purchased. I screamed and ran to David. It just felt too good to be true! We needed further validation so we stormed out of the house to buy more tests, this time, sophisticated pregnancy tests with digital results, then came home and tested multiple times. We were pregnant for sure!! We could no longer doubt the faint line from a $1 kit, a positive was a positive. We were so thankful, grateful and astonished that we even went to church the next day, which had been the first time in over a year. Yes, a little shameful but I am keeping things honest here, haha.
To fast forward to today, we waited 5 weeks for our first ultrasound at 9 weeks, another mind-blowing experience where we saw our fragile, yet very sticky jumping bean, and today and at last, we had our second appointment and heard JC’s heartbeat, concluding my first trimester. :)
Now, to the real deal. How do I feel? I had a wonderful first 11 weeks, emotionally and physically with very minimal nausea and absolutely no mood swings. However, starting week 12, it’s been unbearably uncomfortable at night. The hormones have taken their full affect on bloat, and I am having a mild case of acne as well. I rarely ever even get a pimple, so seeing these tiny pink bumps on my collar bones and forehead really drive me crazy. I am also slowly coming to a realization that I NEVER actually felt “bloat” in my life before until last week. Let me tell you, “bloat” results in all sorts of conditions, and they are not pleasant…but I won’t go into details. I started at 108lbs, and initially dropped down to 106lbs, but I have been putting on more weight recently. I am 113lb as of today, and my Dr. recommended me to stay in between 130lbs-140lbs by term.
Phew~ I wrote quite a bit here! Oh I missed writing…this felt great and with my 2nd trimester insomnia, it will keep me occupied on sleepless nights while David and Mocha snore away into each others’ faces, simultaneously.
I have so much I want to share with you, especially those who are closet pregnant at the moment, women with preggo friends/families, as well as some who are looking to TTC in near future. I will probably do a post on my pregnancy must haves, meals/snacks on successful days VS total fail days, sometime this week. Until then,here are some pictures and thank you for reading! I know it was a hefty amount, but I just had so much to tell you guys. :)
The night stand of a pregnant woman
Classy from the back, slim from the font…13 weeks preggo from the side
Have a wonderful week and follow me on Instagram @stylejourneys